like the smell of spring on a shifting wind

i have a stomach ache right now. it's weird. i wish i didn't have it.

i'm also pretty aggravated right now. UGH. i just want to go home. sometimes it's just way too much dealing with all this drama. i also want to take the newborn baby and make him my own. because i love him and he's so beautiful.

also, i just figured out my timesheet. here are the results: in the past two weeks (that's 14 days) i have worked a grand total of:

GRAND TOTAL = 191.25 hours.

one hundred ninety one point two five. that's how many hours i have worked. BY FAR the most i have ever worked since arriving here. or, in my life.

the least amount of hours in one day was = 2.25
the most amount of hours in one day was = 18.75


ugh i don't feel good. my stomach really hurts.


let's see. what else. i had a pear tonight. i'm thinking that maybe that's why my stomach hurts. it was a good pear. i washed it off. but maybe i missed some chemicals.

went grocery shopping tonight with one of the residents. man, it was a long list. and it was a frustrating experience. i kind of felt like the bad guy alllllll night long. right up until about 20 minutes ago! great.

it was funny because at the grocery store, one of the balloons that are tied by the check-out lanes had escaped. and there was like, a team of employees sent to retrieve the balloon. and they even had this long, complicated balloon-retrieving device handy. it was a sight to behold.

and there was this really attractive man in a nice teal shirt that walked by the aisle we were standing in twice. so, we had to stop in an aisle and feed the baby. and so we were standing in this aisle for like, 20 minutes. and this well dressed guy in a teal shirt walked by twice. he was handsome.

man i'm really cold.

i'm so glad i don't have anything to do tomorrow. meaning today. monday. well, i have to run two errands. one to the post office. and one to the grocery store. AW no. i have to go to wal mart too. UUUGGHHHH. i guess i could do that tuesday night. ugh i should just do it tomorrow. AFTER i sleep in a lot.

ugh i'm just in a not-great mood right now. i should go to bed. it's 2:24am. geeze, where did the time go?!?!

well, i was downstairs working until almost 11:30pm. and then back up here. and then back down for a feeding at 12:45am. and then i didn't come back up until like, probably almost 2am.

i also had to go down to the office to drop off my timesheet and while i was down there, one of the girls asked if i could do a french braid. ah, what the heck. she had just dyed her hair. and it's super long and thick.

maybe i'll get into bed. then i might be warm. geeze i'm freezing. i hope i'm not getting sick. tonight we thought one of the girls might have swine flu. but, it doesn't really seem like that anymore. we also thought one of the little girls might have pink eye.

there's like, a gallon container of germ-x in every room here. basically this house is like one of those plates of bacteria that you experiment on in science class. there are soo many germs.

and i hate using germ-x. it creeps me out. and it's not good for you anyways. and it annoys me that that's all they use at hospitals now. NOBODY washes their hands anymore! it's all germ-x.

also - what's with the new facebook layout? it doesn't make any sense.

so, the resident that i'm monitoring has just started listening to real music at nighttime and not baby music. and, she has this playlist on her ipod that is all country songs. and there are maybe like, 10 or 15 songs. and she has it on repeat. all night long. country. all night long.

she has Should've Said No, which i like. taylor swift. but then she has those other taylor swift songs that are horrible. the "slammin' screen door" song. that makes me think of that summer that Kara would force me to go to the beach like, everyday and she would always play that song on her ipod and she has this whole dance that goes with it. and it was so annoying and so funny. i miss her alot.

the other horrible taylor swift song is the one that has been out FOREVER. it's basically like her new song, only slow version. the new song that goes....."i wear t-shirts.....she wears skirts..." or something. ugh how does that other song go. it's SUPER OVERLY DRAMATIC. i can't stand it.

OH!!! TEARDROPS ON MY GUITAR. that's what it's called. even the title is vom-worthy.

anyways, last night i fell asleep to the "slammin' screen door" song and it was nice because it made me think of Kara. but then i was sad because it made me think of Kara. and then i was mad. and then i fell asleep.

work has been very frustrating lately. i think i will just use that as a blanket statement. the blanket represents everything. what's outside the blanket? more blankets. everything is the same. "suresuresuresuresuresuresure."

i (heart) huckabees, anyone??? love that.

anyways. yes. work. frustrating. and i have been writing the word 'frustrating' a lot also in my log entries. today i logged for like, 2 pages. PLUS did individual logs. PLUS filled out all the new sheets for the upcoming week.

it's a lot of paperwork.

ok. no more complaining. i guess i will go to bed. because if i'm not complaining, then i have nothing to talk about!! that should be my blog slogan.

i'll tell you what i ate today:

- 2 slices of whole wheat multi-grain toast
- cup of coffee
- pear
- 4ish bites of hambuger helper
- yogurt

yum! the pear and the yogurt were the best. i had never in my life had hamburger helper until the other night when the girls made it for dinner. and i really liked it. tonight....not so much. the noodles were overcooked. maybe that is what is giving me a stomach ache.

i read that yogurt is one of the foods to eat to prevent you from getting swine flu.

i feel like my mentioning of swine flu in this entry is coming off like i really care about it. and i'm really concerned about getting it. both of those previous statements are untrue. i don't care about it. and i'm not concerned about getting it.

and i'm still not getting a flu shot. i'm taking a hint from my laptop and am not protected from dangerous viruses.

i think it's really, really creepy that everyone is getting these flu shots. i feel like it's a small step towards turning humans into robots. or something. i can't really explain it.

and for some reason, that makes me think of in Veronica Mars the other night when her dad is telling her that he would just like it if Veronica could roll around in this protective hamster ball so she could never get hurt. and Veronica says, "it would just get annoying. and nobody likes a blonde in a hampster ball."

oh, Veronica. she's so funny. i think i might buy all the seasons. seasons 1 and 2 are only like, $8 on amazon.com. and especially after seeing how season 2 ended i was immediately like, "must go back and rewatch everything!!!!!!!!!"

and i really want Kara to watch it.

ok. now i'm going to bed. this baby is like a time bomb now that he's off his schedule. he had been on a solid three hour schedule for 2 weeks straight. and now it's just free range. whenever, wherever. which makes sense because he's getting hungrier because he's getting bigger.

ok. now i'm going to bed. i'm getting another disc of Freaks and Geeks tomorrow in the mail. which i am VERY excited about. i saw the Jason Schwartzman episode. did i tell you this?!!?! why didn't i tell you this?!!?!? he looked like a baby. and it was really funny. that guidence counselor is crazy, man. and i loved how he ended up being in the band that they all got the fake id's to see. haha.

i still love Bill. he's so funny. but, i was pretty upset with Cindy for hanging out with Sam so much, only to tell him that she is in love with that other guy. i felt bad for Sam. and it was funny when he was auditioning to be the mascot.

ok! now i'm going to bed. sleep off the stomach ache. number one trick in the book.

goodnight everyone. sorry i was lame during this entry. being all angry and upset. or, whatever i was. i'll talk to you more later today. have a great beginning of the week!!!!!! last week of october!!! and then we move right on in to November, A.K.A. the month of Leonardo DiCaprio's birthday.

love you! goodnight.


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