nine twenty eight

AM.  

worrking.  been awake for far too long.  since about 6:45.  nothing has really changed except the light in the sky.  

there's nobody here.  well, there are some people here.  there's one resident, one staff, and one baby.  the staff and the baby are in the daycare.  the resident is upstairs because she's got a bad cold.  everyone else isn't here.  

it's like, super quiet.

a doctor from Dartmouth Hitchcock dropped by this morning to drop off a donation of diapers.  that was nice of her.

so, this morning catching the bus:

JULIE:  So, the bus will pick you up in front of The Little Store.

RESIDENT:  On that side of the street?

JULIE:  Yep.

RESIDENT:  Ok..

JULIE:  Do you want me to walk down with you?  Or, would you rather go by yourself?

RESIDENT:  Uhhhh...........walk with me?

JULIE:  Ok!  Sure!

so, we walked down the street to the bus stop.  there were lots of other kids and moms waiting.  that made me feel better that she wasn't waiting alone in the future.  and i was happy she wanted me to walk down with her.  

i know i hate doing new things alone for the first time.  it's always easier with someone else.

so.  i've looked through all the flyers that came with the newspaper.  i did that for like, an hour.  then killed some time elsewhere on the internet.  and now i'm here.  

i went to bed around 2:45 last night.  it was super hard falling asleep.  i know i didn't fall asleep until after 3:30.  and then i feel like even though i was asleep i was still uncomfortable.  and i woke up at 6:19 because of something.

and then my alarm went off at 6:45.  changed from my sleepy pants into my sweat pants.  i wear the sweat pants to look more formal at work, if you know what i mean.  and i added a cardigan over my t-shirt.  comfort and sophistication.  or, just plain lazy.  

i'm hoping that after being awake for many hours in the early morning will allow me to easily fall to sleep once i get back upstairs at 10am.  

poor Ruby Tuesday.  she's so hungry all the time.  and, i think this new "julie waking up early" schedule is confusing her.  because, normally, i feed her before i go to bed, usually around 2ish or 3ish am.  and then she doesn't get fed again until early afternoonish.  which is when i usually wake up.  

but, since i've been waking up at like, 7am, she thinks it's time to be fed again.  so, she's sooo hungry.  poor little girl.  i feel bad for her.  but, i know that once i leave for work, she'll just go back to sleep and be fine.  and when i come back, i'll just go back to sleep, and then she will too again, and she'll be fine until later.  

i put her in front of her dry food bowl this morning to show her that she can eat that in between meals.  i don't think she understood.  

the other day i tried to teach her to recognize the word "food."  and also "kara."  

oh!  but last night was scary.  while i was trying to fall asleep, all of a sudden i could feel her walking on me.  i could feel the blankets change form.  so, i reach down to pet her, and there's nothing there.  and i sit up and look, and there's nothing there.  and ruby is sound asleep on the red chair by the window.  and i was like, "hm, that's very weird and spooky."  

it must have been a ghost cat.

i still can't believe that emotionally charged scene from Entourage last night.  i was still thinking about it this morning.  how much i was loved it.  moved to tears, i was.  the lighting of the scene is just great.  that sunset.  

oh!  in other exciting news, i was going through all of My Documents yesterday to see what i had and hadn't already copied over to my external hard drive.  during virus crisis mode.  and, i found some pictures of the Ben Lee/Ben Kweller show that Jenny and i went to in CT, i think.  AND, i found a video that i thought i had lost when my first external crashed.  

it's Ben and Ben singing BRUISED!!!!  a classic song by The Bens (Folds, Lee, Kweller).  and i just love that song.  and i was soooo excited to see that i still had the video.  AND NOT ONLY THAT VIDEO:  but, Catch My Disease AND My Guitar.  i was so excited!

and then i lamented the loss of all my Phantom Planet videos.  i had copied them all over onto my first external so they would be extra safe.  obviously that didn't work.  and now they're gone and now Phantom Planet is on an indefinite hiatus.  so, who knows when the next time i'll be able to see them perform.  

if i had $45 i would take online guitar lessons with Darren.  OMG yes that's right.  but, it's $45 a session.  i wonder if he gives out financial aid.  mmm i doubt it.

wow!  i've only got three minutes left.  although, i wonder if i'm supposed to cover until 10am, or until another staff comes in.  i guess we'll see.  because there's really nobody else here.  so quiet.  

i'm hungry now.  UGH.  i hate it.  i have to go to the grocery store today.  i only have one tea bag left.  and i need rice wine vinegar maybe.  and more coffee.  

so, it's ten oh one and nobody is here yet.  so, i'm gonna wait.  Diane usually gets here between 10-10:30.  

i forgot to tell you that yesterday when i went to the post office it was the ruggedly handsome postal worker who got me my Netflix.  i was pretty excited.  he's so friendly.  and handsome.  i just love the people who work there.  they are so nice and so helpful.  waaay nicer than the people who work in the Berwick, Maine post office.  they are not so friendly all the time.  Lebanon, New Hampshire = friendly all the time.  

hey!  that should be our town slogan!  

Welcome to Lebanon, NH!  Friendly all the time.

aw.  that's so nice.  

ok!  i am free to go now.  just had a nice talk with Diane.  and now it's time for bed.  and i feel like i'm going to sneeze.  

so!  have a lovely day.  i will talk to you at a later point.  i look forward to it!

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